Rumours of my death have been greatly exaggerated.

Soooo that formatting thing didn't work ouuuutttt. It wouldn't read the burner. I'm just buying a new computer. The Dell needs its time to die in peace. Seven years, man. It did good.

I found a pretty good one for £320, so I'm going to go for that instead.



IN OTHER NEWS fjgpdjfgojsdpfogjspdofgj

FUCKING. ROBOTS.

So this morning came our presentations of what we've done this week. Contrary to my vast amounts of idling, it turns out that I'm actually at practically the same stage as every other Macmillanite. WE'RE A BUNCH OF SLACKERS, I SAY TO YOU. A BUNCH OF FUCKING SLACKERS.

However, by this morning I was pretty sure Captain Lobsterface was not going to go down well, primarily because he was a hero with a cast of characters but no solidified story. With a heavy heart I had to discard it, but I might speak to him later about possibly pursuing it when it's more complete as part of a third year project.

In the meantime, I'm running with one of Elvaron's suggestions and one that should have been obvious given that I have a HUGE FETISH FOR THEM:

ROOOOOOOOBOOOOTTTTSSS.

So I'm making a fiction story made up to look a bit like a tech manual, but more vibrant and maybe with lots of earthy tones and a brand of humour a child between six and eight will hopefully be able to grasp. As far as visual language goes it's fairly simple and charming, but it has a possibility to incorporate lots of interactive devices and still tell a story through the protagonist building his own robot, and would you believe it?

Mark said he liked the fucking idea.

MARK LIKES MY FUCKING IDEA.

MARRRRKKKK LIIIIKKKKESSS MYYYYYY IDEEEEEAAAAAAAAA.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THIS INPUT. THIS NEVER HAPPENS.

... If the horsemen come, tell them I'm not in.


Also, have some of the experimental swatches I did last week for my different story ideas. There's none for Lobsterface because I just brought the sketch that made this icon, and I've posted that here before. None for the robots idea, because that one is soooo very recent and the one doodle I did was five minutes and bad.

( Robot Skyfish and a stylised... forest... thing. )

I think I'm doing my Macmillan book about Captain Lobsterface. They might hate it but I'm bringing about 4 other ideas plus speed paintings with me on Monday so I have backup plans against rejection.

...

I need to scale his penis down before I print this.


AND RP STUFF~

I have to drop or super-hiatus Shu over at Purg due to time constraints, and I gotta admit, I am pretty gutted. I've loved playing him, although his characterisation was something I've always fought with, but it seems that as long as he's in a position of power I can get his voice easily enough. He makes plotting easy, and I'm glad I've been able to involve him in so much major stuff.

On the one hand Purg has always made me happy because my characters haven't been limp dicks like they've tended to be in other games. By limp dick I mean - when they're played well enough, but they're just kind of there, and never really get involved in any big stuff. Purg's never been like that. My guys always have something going on, or are doing things that will lead into other major things, and it's been awesome. The mods accommodate for a lot of my whackjob plot ideas - right up to creating the Voice OC and all that that was going to entail.

I really hope I can bring him back in the summer - although right now, I should probably be more concerned with holding onto Hojo than bringing people back in after they've gone.

AWWWRIGHT.

I'm formatting my computer because it's gotten to the stage where the chronic spasm times outweigh the time it's running properly, so I might be out of commission for a little while. ♥ It'll take forever to copy everything over, but the actual formatting happens on Monday, thennn I'll need to set up my 'net again.

BE GOOD. Don't do anything I wouldn't.

Note to self: Don't forget to transfer files on desktop WILL BE FUCKED IF I DO. ._. My commission stuff is in there. Also my favourites.

Still have no story for Monday glspgojsdpfgoj kill me. Maybe I should back out of the Macmillan thing while the going's good.

Maybe I'll just do Hansel and Gretel or something.

I did have some ideas, though. I kind of wandered about maybe doing a fake-o encyclopaedia-slash-ministory about a fictional machine that might interest children. Maybe a dream machine or something, although that sounds a bit cliché and fanciful. Otherwise it's something with a labyrinth, something about burrows, or something about train journeys.

... Might combine journeys with the dreams thing and just make the whole story this wordless narrative of taking a journey through a dream, but I'm not sure my painting ability is anywhere near strong enough to serve the purpose.

The story doesn't have to be terribly good, though. That might help me out a bit. They don't grade you on plot, just on visuals, so... I'll be hella busy this weekend, overall. xD So I'd better get going nowwww and stop slacking off. <3

I-IS ANYBODY HERE san_ekkusu?

;; Thank you so, so much for the paid userpics! ♥

I now have a reeeeeeally good reason to stop neglecting my personal LJ.



I also want to add that my hair has grown so much that it's doing the helmet thing and the only time I have full vision is after a shower when my hair's all slicked back meaning I am clearly at my most evil after ritual nakedness, as slicked-back hair is a universal language for evil geniuses. I'm wanting my short hair back, but I also sort of want to let it keep growing until shoulder length sets in just to see what it'd look like.

Wish me luck with this~.

This is how it works:
I write a short summary of the story I'm going to be illustrating, or select an existing text out of copyright that's fairly dated and summarise it with particular emphasis on how I'm going to personally place my own spin on it.

I do my planning and create a complete final image showing how the visual language is going to work and what it's going to look like. I do all of this in say... this week, or by next Wednesday, because I've not started yet and tomorrow is Visual Studies so I can't even kick it off thennn.

I pitch it to my tutors. At this point they either accept it and permit me to continue with the project, or they reject it and suggest I do something different. I highly suspect the latter is in store for me, but if they do that, I'll just revise the idea and do it as a regular children's book project and alter the brief so that it's not intended for Macmillan, because I really do want to do this. I can't avoid this just because my longer projects keep going awry. I won't succeed until I figure out my time management AND I need to learn not to stay up 'til 3 in the morning writing LJ posts like I am now because the lack of sleep is a major factor in my inability to work competently. I know this, I do. And I'm working on it.

Lots of little goals this time. Will not let scale of project eat me like it did last time. Will not fail like last time. That's the plan, at least. I mean, failing was fun for a while but come on, it's kind of lost its novelty now.

Shitttt now I just need a story. I'm thinking something actually quite dark, because I work well tonally. If I can keep the colours to a minimum, it ought not to look too bad. And I rock Quink really well, these days. Age range is 0-8, so a picture book or chapter book. Probably, knowing me, will be something relatively whimsical but rendered realistically. They'll hate that. Only the likes of Doré, Rackham and Tenniel got away with that, and they're dead now, but damn it they're still my favourites. ;~;

I'm actually kind of peeved. From 2pm 'til 1am on Sunday I was painting the French map bastard project, first thing I've liked of mine in a LONG time and LOL THEY DIDN'T WANT TO SEE THEM.

THEY DIDN'T WANT TO SEE THEM.

APPALLING.

Okay bed shitttt.

NIGHT GUYS. If you have any inspiring suggestions for children's stories feel free to nudge me. ;~; I'm kind of drawing a blank right now. PROBABLY BECAUSE IT'S 2:20 KFGJSODIJ OKAY GOING GOING.

CROSSPOST BONANZA. Sorry to the people also on ffvii_yaoi and sheepwithpenis. :(

Just a quick Hojo/Vincent, safe for work, gift for horrorshops.

( Violent Red. )

NSFW.

I can't help but think this image needs a caption.

Spirit Kadaj: IT'S HIM.
Spirit Kadaj: BEING THERE.
Spirit Kadaj: ABOVE HER ASS. LOOKING LIKE A CHILDREN'S MAGICIAN.
Spirit Kadaj: "PRESTO!"


Stuff is happening but I'm way too drained to go on about it. ♥ I hope you guys are all doing well.

For anyone who was waiting for an answer about the Taiwanese watermelon porn I watched in France:

Found it!

Now you know what you're shopping for. ♥

I'm really not a big fan of PB RPs to be honest, because I'm not sure I understand the point. But a girl I know recently advertised one she was in and it just made me wonder who I would use - or at least, who I could viably edit for him.

So I found this picture of Sir Ian McKellen while looking for possible Hojo lookalikes.

... With the glasses - even if they were sunglasses - I figured there might be something to work with, there.

( Ian Hojo has a good ring to it. )

Shannon: Oh, and I have TWO pure white hairs
Shannon: and my mom said that after her surgery, she started to go gray
PC: MEEP, MEEP, SHEEP SHEEP SQUEE~
SHEEP SHEEP SQUEE, BLEAT BLEAT BLEE~
MEEP, MEEP, SHEEP SHEEP SQUEE~
SHEEP SHEEP SQUEE, BLEAT BLEAT BLEE~
SHANIROTH!
SHANIROTH!
Shannon: XP I dare you to post that on your lj

This is a bit delayed due to my overworked/underpaid lifestyle but ogtjhdpftjhpsfjths

( ojfhpsjdfogihsfdgsdfgs )

I ALSO GOT. I also got your card, Celes. ;; And I TOTALLY KNEW IT'D BE THAT FJSDOIGJSOIDJ THANK YOU. THANK YOU SO MUCH~~~

MmmmmRai. <333

I have all gifts wrapped and cards bought and just kind of... sitting here. gljsdgospdij I need to get off my arse and do something.

Also, I have a cold and think I might stay off sick tomorrow. I feel really nauseous every time I speak or open my mouth so much as to yawn. It's not sexy at all.

OH HOLY SHIT.

The secret about Hojo and Vincent is about me and Chelsey (usofbs), respectively. I'm just... jkdgsigjosdij. Squee. Fucking squeeeeeeee. I've never felt so flattered in my life.

I do semi-wish I knew who posted it, though. I honestly can't think of anyone who'd still be following that thread in the game as it's quite a long way back in the history, but the posts they reference are quite recent. At the same time though, I like the mystery, too.

Also, internet's partially down, so I apologise if I take ages responding to comments! I'm using University interwebs where I can, but I really should be working right now so I'd better gooooo.

I apologise for any recent self-centered behaviour. It's been a long time since I've been able to say that things are looking better on the whole and I sort of lost the whole being a Good Friend thing somewhere on the downward slide.

Shannon's getting her hysterectomy on Monday. They FINALLY okayed her. No more hemorrhages. It still pisses me off that they had to wait until she was in a very serious state to even make the suggestion, but at least it's okay, now. At least it's over.

Aaaand they would give us life drawing on the second day back. All across my shoulders is nothing but paaaaain from sitting rigid on the donkey for 8 hours with my arm up. And I'm tired. I'm so tired I'm virtually unresponsive at this point. I'm bordering on communication via grunt intonation.

... nnnnn. Okay. Bed.

Happy New Year, Auld Lang Syne, Etc. Etc.

New Years Resolution: PROCRASTINATE MOAR.

Thank you so much for the card, Puppy. ;-; SO MUCH.

I miss you and the gang. ♥ I hear we're maybe trying to start a new one up again, though?

I slept around 14 hours yesterday. And I STILL want to sleep, and I've only been up for around 6 hours. This is insane. There's having no energy and then there's having no energy, you know?

I was thinking of something. I wonder how people will be able to prove my death online in the event of me, uh, dying. Is it a legal obligation that they print your obituary? My family is kind of private when we can help it. Is there even anyone who would know the right number to call to find out who's died in Cornwall? There ought to be some evidence of such a thing.

Either way, I should totally nominate someone to be my investigator when I die and get all the info and shit. Shannon certainly could vouch for me though, I think, and it's not like I'm hard to contact. A lot of you guys can just tap my mobile number and you'll know if you get the busy signal or my grieving mother. xD But I'd rather not have people ringing her to go "CAN I CONFIRM THE DEATH OF YOUR CHILD TO SETTLE AN INTERWEB ARGUMENT, GRIEVING LADY?" And published evidence would be better then hearsay.

I DON'T KNOW. I've been looking at too many pseuicide wanks. xD

I missed drawing porn, I gotta say.

And thank you RP for some of the most WTF? fandom pairings I've ever played. Schuldig/Shu? Szayel Apollo/Professor Hojo? Sweet cheesus. And I thought my hard-on for Hojo/Rufus was bad.

IT IS VERY WORRYING THAT ALL OF THE WOMEN WHO FLIRT WITH ME IN SUIKODEN V ARE RELATED TO ME. However, Gizel/Dolph is fucking hot. I love Dolph's voice actually, if not his fashion sense.

I miss having Georg in my party. ;^;

PURCHASING DILEMMA FOR WHEN I FINISH SUIKO V.
DO I BUY: Shadow of the Colossus collector's box set? Or DO I BUY: Digital Devil Saga? I've played SotC but in America, and I need a copy. And DDS, I've wanted to play for a million years and have heard good things about.

Halp plz.

Happy Christmas, guys.

Shannon: Brudda adores the Renji phonestrap. ♥ And says thank you very much.

I have a grey woolen coatthing from my parents. It's toastier than your mom and just as loose, the way I like it. Aunt Diane bought me something I can't possibly wear - it's just not my style, too prettified - but it was a very sweet gesture.

I can't wait until I hit that age where I get nothing but socks for Christmas. You definitely know you're heading there when all you start to get is clothes. xD I like it, though. It's funny, but when I don't get many things at Christmas, I suppose I feel more mature in a way.

I've spent a lot this year, but it's been worth it. And I'm still buying. Everything overseas is going to be incredibly late, but I want to make sure that it's at least worth the wait.

Though, everything this year has been late. I literally assembled the tree yesterday night when I was dead on my sleep from being awake since 2am. Today I was awake since 5am and could have slept at 3pm for how exhausted I felt. That isn't normal at all. Why am I so easily drained, lately?

I'm being dragged out drinking for New Years Eve. I haven't been dragged out for a New Years in eight or nine years. Back then, I drank about five alcopops and kept waiting to feel tipsy. Little did I know that an anemic mouse couldn't get pissed on them. I just urinated a lot.

This year, it will probably just be coca cola and feeling incredibly sleepy. I think I walked straight from being thirteen to thirty.

Man. Isn't this the sort of reflection that's supposed to come on your birthday, not Christmas? It's been a hard year, though. Long. Longggg like longcat. I think of January and it feels like it was a decade ago.

I have the urge to do the original-character RP stint again, but I'm not sure of what. My moods are so flighty that I have trouble sticking with anything when it's my own characters.

Suikoden V is going well. There's a lot more perverse male characters in this one than there ever have been before, and there's also an awful lot more hints at incest between my family. I know we're royals, k, but that still doesn't mean I want to see your milksacs, auntie.

In FFVII, you earn points for your favourite girl (or guy). In Suikoden V, you earn 'sister points' for how pleased she is with you. Oh, Konami. One of the more pleasant surprises in Suikoden II was that my sister DIDN'T want to shag me as much as my best friend did, but Lymsleia is sure as hell making up for what Nanami didn't do with all the hints at wanting to peek at her in baths and not wanting her to get married and be taken away from me. If I were Arshtat and saw that shit going down, I'd Lordlake my children's genitals.

That said, it's all in good fun and I love the political intrigue. It's a lot heavier than it's been in previous games, and very well thought out. Plus, the strategist is really awesome. She reminds me of Shu, sans the snarkiness and arrogance.

I don't enjoy Luc's absence from the prequels, I admit. :< I also wonder if I should summon the strength to try and get through Suikoden IV again even though I really can't stand it. Would it be worth it? Or would it be FFVIII all over again?

I'm quite sleepy.